Clouds In My Coffee

"Clouds in my coffee" are the confusing aspects of life and love. That which you can't see through, and yet seems alluring...until. Like a mirage that turns into a dry patch. Perhaps there is something in the bottom of the coffee cup that you could read if you could (like tea leaves or coffee grinds). Carly Simon 5/17/01"

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For quite sometime now I have been in that state of juxtapositioning my realities against the backdrop of my beliefs. I responded rather vehemently in that thread started by Cornelius about the alleged disqualification of the Toronto Blessing initiative which most people feel was anything but a work of God.

I have had to deal with a great fight of afflictions in regard to all of this. Why? Because my roots are to be found frome hence. Roots which at first have been given the full assurance of a solid understanding of the interventions of God in the affairs of men in the bubble like explosions that seem to erupt almost randomly in a world torn and tired and imploding from the weight of adversitiy.

At first it was oh so grande! There were times and times of activity and molding of my soul into a pattern which was "pleading unto God" while He was making me "pleasing unto God." I was instructed and guided by His eye and by His voice. By His great loving hand resting upon Me. By His word resident within me and welling up in prophetic explosions which detailed many aspects of spirituality. I have them all saved in hard copy and on computer disk. They still speak to me after over ten years since having been granted them.

But life is as the grass, and the world that I live in is subject to moth and rust corrupting that which I have taken posession of. It is a certainty that all things which are not kept "propped up" by the Prime Mover of the universe will ulitmately wither and die. Flesh and grass go to an oven at their end. Discarded and cast off as suitable for burning. Dead vinewood is useless to God and to man.

I had a kind of "Damascus Road" experience of my own in that day in 1996. I was lead to the street known as "Straight" and there I received my sight. The scales fell off of my eyes. I was given words of promise in regards to my calling in life as a prophetic evangelist. Supernatural activity abounded and my life was on a fast track up until I met my wife (that in itself a leading from God) and then I was given a word in the quiet of my soul... 1Pe 4:12 Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you: 1Pe 4:13 But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ's sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy.

At the time it ( that verse) felt so obtuse to my understanding....I was on top of the world...I had lived a wilderness life for literally forty years to the year I was born again. But then the shadows of darkness began to slowly advance upon me. I felt like a "Duracell" battery in that pink rabbit in the commercial a few years ago. I could feel this encroaching darkeness and I could feel the light of His love slowly ebbing. I was petrified. I am nearly in tears just writing this. I am so vastly in dissaray because after over a decade (eleven years on March 17th coming) I have to admit that compared to the initial event, I am as nothing this day. My flesh has succeeded in it's rivally which we know comes by scripture. (circa Romans 6 or 7) ..The thought has crossed my mind often about Saul becoming Paul because of his encounter with Christ on that Damascus stretch as he went about critically involving himself in the harrasments of the fledgling church that Christ had ordained into being through the "Upper Room" outpouring of His Spirit. Paul was somehow enabled to continue, (Act 9:16 For I will shew him how great things he must suffer for my name's sake.) and I have felt more and more like the demoniac of the Gadarenes who was simply told by Jesus, Luk 8:39 Return to thine own house, and shew how great things God hath done unto thee. And he went his way, and published throughout the whole city how great things Jesus had done unto him.

Even that has run it's course and now I stand nude and bewildered as I realize the vanities of it all. If this truth I feel I was allowed to be privy to is after all only some shadow of a reality that yet remains undiscovered to me, and if I am in deception from the fact of a lack of forbearance, then I am of all men most miserable. It appears that for the most part, that unless God has a thing going on which requires a direct intervention, then the words I have held dear are held in reserve and do little to effect the desires of my heart or to substantiate the promises given in them. Believing and saying, beholding victories, effecting changes, arming against adversities...all mean next to nothing without the power of God to ensure His word does not return void. If it is void, then it is not returning to Him and the connection is not made.


I cannot not rationale any longer between the true and perfect will of God and that which is in reality only me like the elusive butterfly. looking for something I am not sure of.... http://www.jacquedee63.com/elusivebutterfly.html

I was in prayer a couple of weeks ago by now and I was given another word from another song...The caveat being that I was told many years ago that He (The Lord) will speak to me through every available voice) Those words haunt my soul and allow my grief to flow, for they impy I am in need of a major overhaul....

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I can't believe that after all the Lord has done in my life I should stand in a place where He is confessing I need a recall for new parts in a partnership....I never did ought but try hard to go forward and the mire of my day is a forclosure on all of that. I have something beckoning me and I am not in fulfillment and I can't tell the voice of a stranger anymore....

The story of the Good Samaritan:

Luke 10:17-

And the seventy returned again with JOY, SAYING LORD, even the devils are subject unto us through THY NAME.
18. And he said unto them, I beheld Satan as lightning fall from heaven.

19. Behold, I give unto you POWER to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you.

20. Notwithstanding in this REJOICE NOT, that the spirits are subject unto you; but rather REJOICE, because your names are written in heaven.

21. In that hour Jesus REJOICED IN SPIRIT, and said, I thank thee, O Father, Lord of heaven and earth, that thou hast hid these things from the wise and prudent, and hast revealed them unto babes, even so, Father; for so it seemed good in thy sight.

22. All things are delivered to me of my Father, and no man knoweth who the Son is, but the Father; and who the Father is, but the Son, and he to whom the Son will reveal him.

23. And he turned him unto his disciples, and said privately, Blessed are the eyes which see the things that ye see:

24. For I tell you, that many prophets and kings have desired to see those things which ye see, and have not seen them; and to hear those things which ye hear, and have not heard them.

25. And, behold, a certain lawyer stood up, and tempted him, saying, Master, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?

26. He said unto him, What is written in the law? how readest thou?

27. And he answering said, thou shall love the LORD thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy strength, and with all thy mind; and thy neighbor as thyself.

28. And he said unto him, Thou hast answered right; do, and thou shalt live.

29. But he, willing to justify himself, said unto Jesus, And who is my neighbour?

30. And Jesus answering said, A certain man went down from Jerusalem to Jericho and fell among thieves, which stripped him of his rainment, and wounded him, and departed, leaving him half dead.
JUST AS JESUS died at the hands of thieves and murderers. But HE IS RISEN...REJOICE IN THE LORD!

31. And by chance there came down a certain priest that way; and when he saw him, he passed by on the other side.
comparitively as just like the Phaisees.

32. And likewise a Levite, when he was at the place, came and looked on him, and passed by on the other side.

33. But a certain Samaritan, as he journeyed, came where he was, and when he saw him, he had compassion on him,

34. And went to him and bound up his wounds, pouring in oil and wine, and set him on his own beast, and brought him to an inn, and took care of him.
Just like Mary when she came to Jesus' feet.

35. And on the morrow when he departed, he took out two pence, and gave them to the host, and said unto him, Take care of him; and whatsoever thou spendest more, when I come again, I will repay thee.

Christ Jesus will double his portion on us...When he comes again he will repay all our efforts.

36. Which now of these three, thinkest thou, was neighbour unto him that fell among theives?
37. And he said, He that shewed mercy on him, Then said Jesus unto him, Go, and do likewise.

then we are come to the next chapter where we may all be caught up in serving like Martha.


Grace be unto you thou good and faithful servant. You are good Samaritan. Glory to Glory, peace and joy from the King of Kings and LORD of LORD's to you...yes I understand the song...we go through many stages in our walk...but I keep trusting Jesus...to help me...yes we all stumble...but you have never put a stumblingblock before me only strenghtened me in Faith to Look to Jesus in all things....because when you post I must recongise Verse 17....which turns me to Jesus immediately.

Make it clear Frevent...In JESUS NAME....notice verse 17...this is the problem I also recognise about first person prophesing.

In Jesus Name we pray...It is in his Name and his Power. God Bless you

Thanks Larry...

This morning l've been thinking about driving along through the fog. We get a lot of that here in the Northwest. I suppose you see it on the road driving. What l've been seeing isn't exactly clouds in my coffee but breaks in the fog...same thing l guess. Driving along and then it opens to a clearing and then before you know it your back in the fog again...

Before l came back on line to see this post l was thinking about Paul's experience on the road to Damascus.

I was thinking about Jacob on the road to Bethel...When his sleeping eyes where opened. I was thinking about Jacob and the hardening in part until...



It's not yet but soon...





There's a wrestling match coming... Can you hear him stepping through the reeds of time?

Dear Larry, you ARE so close...it's right in front of your nose

...I got my answer

Part of what is bothering me is wondering "When does one ever arrive?" It seems the quest is lifelong (ultimately) and that is understandable, but to measure goals on a defined timeline leaves one arching his back and trying to stand erect when all the evidence says, "How art thou fallen." To live a life open before God and at least partially transparent to men and to be told "When will you be mine?" as an ongoing prospectus that one has not yet truly encountered the "Way and the Truth and the Life" sends one reeling.

What does God want even? Commitment and obedience, obviously. This comes to mind and is surely an aspiration of the Spirit... 2Jo 1:4 I rejoiced greatly that I found of thy children walking in truth, as we have received a commandment from the Father.

But at what level is Truth personified in any believer or belief system? The word says, Mat 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. But what? We live in a body and we have dreams. Word is granted that says that is OK with God...Psa 21:2 Thou hast given him his heart's desire, and hast not withholden the request of his lips. Selah.

So is it ever wrong to desire a thing? What determination of God grants one man a thing and will disallow it to another? Apparently it is a heart issue, in what do you trust? But why am I always in need of some form of spiritual "Gravol" to avoid my nausea? I have been asked to "prove myself" to God many times. At once and in every place that confirmation of willingness to obey has been followed by yet another test of the intrinsic nature to give out of a heart that knows no corruption for vainglory or for possessions of a "trophy like" nature.

But then the door that one expects to see opening goes from being slightly ajar on the hinges to pretty much being closed. I have a prevailing thought lately about Mary, Martha and Lazarus. Lazarus died and with it all the dreams he had for himself and perhaps whatever support he had for his sisters as well. He was already stinking when Jesus finally showed up. It seems that when one has a vision from God and a desire to see it fulfilled, it must surely die and be in need of a resurrection before it can know vibrant life. I have always imagined that the days of Lazarus' life after his resurrection must have been precious and sweet knowing from when he was delivered, even in the face of those who sought his death anew just because he had a testimony of victorious living after a death had occurred.

In that then is to further be found that once a promise of God has been fulfilled there will always be a gallows in the offing, much like there also was for Mordecai at his time of serving God ..

you can still have what you want , you always had the means to receive what you want, it's right in front of your nose

That approximates what I was told from the Spirit a few weeks ago,,,"You are so close and you don''t even know it."

I was in the army a few years ago however, and they taught me that close is only good in horseshoes and hand grenades....


There is certainly a "fog of war" in the Spirit realm also....

I have to rewind my tape daily it seems...there have been positives today as well...they usually come to bolster my need when the Lord sees a deck of cards forming a house where His word says there ought to be a house on a rock.

We just keep occupying...

You should have learned what that means from the army too....Think about it.

What's it like to occupy territory? Pretty hellish from all the movies l've seen. Food is scarce...You are usually dug in someplace. But there's few atheiests in a fox hole so usually you are in good company.

The enemy is alway plotting against you....He wants to take back what you have! Should we appease him so we can have a cot to sleep on rather than a dirt floor? And what will the Captain think? No..we have to hold our ground and not tempt the Lord as are do.

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WEIRD CLOUD PERTAINING TO COMING POLESHIFT
THIS IS A REAL CLOUD IN THE COFFEE
SO ENJOY EVERY MOMENT OF THIS DAY!
Before the Pole Shift
We have stated that people will not be taken by surprise as the Earth changes will give certain clues that the time has arrived, the last weeks are upon them. We have also stated that money will be worthless, and your skill set and knowledge is the best asset you have. Buy seed, learn to garden, buy fishing gear, learn how to make a windmill out of junk, how to keep a light bulb burning for 100 years. If you are relying on money, things this will buy, you don't have the right mind set. Nor will ownership of property be assured. What police force or courts will enforce the laws? What neighbors you have are your assurance, and your relationship with them. Goods can be taken from you, in a wink. Your skills cannot be taken. Work with others of good heart, forming communities. This is our advice.