This to me is like stepping into an ant pile, and you are feeling to sting of their bites, the little demons! Wipe them off! Dont let yourself get into beating yourself up or blaiming or doughting G-d, this is what Saten would want you to do, and he knows just want to use to get you there, i try not to let myself go there, its hard, but its like having others call my G-d names, like a little kid would in the play yard and i getting mad about it, it might be true, NOT! My G-d is very good, a Loving G-d, Just like a really loving Father he will not give us things just because we ask, it just might not be want is really needed, i serpize myself for saying so, but our G-ds love is brevoking to him, this is why he take account of every thing about us, even saving our tears, i save my daughters teeth, not her tears, this is a much greater passion than we could even understand.....
Father, Please show Fervent, just how fervent you are, just how deep your love drives you, that you can feel his heart beat, and love the rithem of it, that you can small the sent of his worship and it is wonderful to you, and every tear that he cries you do save every tear that he shads, every one! You are the Greatiest Daddy in all the world, Please show him how much, set him free from this brevoking things in his life, in Jesus name, amen!
laurel