Lately, my thoughts about pain is that life's ambition for true happiness is an illusion.
I have a job, I make money, I have shelter, I eat daily. I have the basic things I need to get on with this life.
I perhaps have described a majority of the folks that visit this forum. But deep in my heart I reject the values that I think many people strive to have that for some reason are idolized as being the source of happiness; wealth, status, influence, health, family. I do not reject these things themselves but I reject the thought that these are the answers to happiness. That lifes long goal is not about achieving these things in being happy.
I think the world knows this about me and I feel it shuns me because I am not committed to playing its game to its fullest measure.
I believe Christ was shunned for the very same reason, not only by rejecting these things but by living the example as well, consequently Christ was very acquainted with grief and pain. I believe grief and pain is the consequences of rejecting the world and it's values of what it defines as happiness.
But to play the game of pursuing happiness only adds to the illusion I believe that life is, because chances are, happiness is fleeting and is not sustainable in this life. Wealth can be lost, status refused, influence ignored, health failing, and family neglected. Though I have not achieved such things (because I do not readily strive for them with gusto) I often hear of those who have and are still not satisfied. So it's like a trap, to me, spending a lifetime trying to accomplish wealth, status, influence, health and family and still not achieve it. After all, for example in achieving wealth, the top 2% of the wealthist people own 50% of the worlds wealth, so the odds are against me from the start.
Pain is what makes me realize that life is an illusion. And to underscore what I believe is the truthfullness in my view, Christ demonstrated the shallow bonds of this illusion by accomplishing a great many number of miracles. And its like a catch-22. If I buy into this "reality" by pursuing "happiness" I am unable to make miracles by faith as I am more dependent on my abilities, but if I am miserable with grief and pain by rejecting the reality I am empowered with performing miracles in relying upon my faith in Christ. In a way I realize the truth of this view when my faith in Christ survives the ordeal by my continued rejection of the world's values, thus suffering, and that becomes the miracle in my life.
The lesson to me is reject the pain as well as the values of the world as part of rejecting the illusion, neither the devil (pain and grief) nor the deep blue sea (pursuing happiness in this world) will show me the truth, but only Christ.
In the days ahead I believe the world will be stricken with a great deal of pain and grief, and from it will be two camps of thought. One, that I brought this upon myself or two, God did because of my unrepenting ways. Well, I do bring it upon myself as I could not blame God that I drive my car adding to global warming, causing the artic polar cap to melt, for example. But this mode of thinking leads to my belief God is causing my misery because of my unrepentant way. i.e. If I would stop driving my car that adds to global warming I will advert the wrath of God from my casual (or sinful) behavior.
I can only think of one way for breaking this circular thinking, and that is the pain that this world will receive shortly is to show happiness is an illusion and unobtainable within the world. So receiving pain is not from unrepentance, as Christ himself was very acquainted with grief and pain and had no need to ever repent. Receiving pain is to have the truth revealed.
I believe it's God's will that all are meant to and shall suffer pain for the reason all will be revealed the truth. Suffer pain and grief now or later, but never to suffer pain and grief forever, not for anyone in either case.
Well wishes and regards. It is all true it was inspired by the Holy Spirit.
Love HB