Hi Roger
I pray that the good LORD keeps you constantly on his side. A picture came to my mind; the week sheep the shepard always keeps close to him!
May God give you courage, and boldness. May you realize how horrible hell is and how important it is for you to stick to your faith no matter what.
I once heard Jesse Duplantis say that his mother CHOSE the day she died. She had told God that on the day she decides to leave this earth will when all her children and her husband are saved. She told God: "LORD, the day I want to go home to You, I will say: "LORD, into your hands I commit my spirit", just as Jesus did on the cross.
Shortly before that day came, she had told her family about it. She prayed the prayer, and DIED!
The doctor came to give a death certificate and could not find a cause of death. He told Jesse: "I will write "heart failure", just to write something.
I prayed this prayer to God too!
If I ever get caught, and imprisoned, with no chance of going out, being set free, and they want to torture me, I too will pray it. I have alraedy told God.
I hope it will never happen, but we never know!