Hello everyone,  as you all know, I am very new to this forum... I have been fighting with God for 2 years now and I need help.  I guess I should say more like fighting myself over what God has been telling me to do.  Every time I get deep into prayer I always get led back to one sentence " you must prepare for the battle"  At first, I thought I was nuts... yes, just off my rocker because I was going through a major life event.  My mother, who was my best friend and spiritual guide, had emphesyma.  2 years ago it got very bad and it landed her in the hospital in respitory failure.  She had a do not resusitate(?) order, but when the doctor asked me, I couldn't let her go. She was only 64.  I went to her and told her that if they didn't put her on a venilator that she would die... I didn't even pray about it at the most important time... I did the selfish thing and made the doctor save her life.  She was in a coma for a week.  I barely left her side, at the time I had 2 boys under 4yrs... Thank God for my family.  I spent many hours in deep prayer and God told me that he led me to save her so that relationships would be mended, but then she would die.  I don't know about anyone else, but when I talk with God, I can hear him.  Most people would think I was crazy and sometimes, I feel I am, but my Mom understood because she had the same kinds of gifts as I.  He also told me that I would have to pull these people together and show them my strength.  I'm the baby of the family... I have two brothers who are 9 & 13 years older than I.. so of course, they have always treated me like a baby (even though I'm now 36!)  Mom came out of the coma and that was the happiest and sadest day of my life because I knew she was not going to live very much longer.  Her and my oldest brother had been estranged for many many years and because of that my aunt had a huge hate for him.  By the end of the week all relationships were fixed.  She even forgave me for not letting her go (even though I still feel guilt over it)  She suffered so very much.  God, this is so painful to write, I miss her so much and I feel so alone without her here.  I'm sorry I totally got away from my original thought,  I guess I needed to let this burden go.  I held her in my arms and sang to her as she was struggling to breathe... a day after everyone said thier peace she went into respitory failure again...to watch it once was horrible, but to see her suffer like this twice was just unbearable.  I just held her and I sang the song she used to sing to me when I was a baby and I prayed over her and sang over and over for hours.  right before she passed I could see her spirit pulsating.  It was a bright white and so beautiful.  How I could feel happy and so miserable at once is beyond my comprehension.  I knew she was about to leave me so I threw myself on top of her and pleaded for her not to leave me yet.  I felt her spirit move right through me and the peace and love that filled me was just undescribable.  And then she was gone. 

Now that she is gone, I don't have anyone to tell these things that happen to me.  She used to guide me in every way.  She knew if it was from God.  Since then I have had so many visions, dreams things I can't explain.  I'm scared because of things I think I know and don't want to know.  Do you guys understand any of this?  Ever since my mom has gone home God keeps telling me to get ready for battle.  Like I am actually going to be fighting... He wants me to learn how to survive out in the wilderness... stock up, things like that.  Every time I get this from him I push it aside, thinking I'm just going nuts, but it keeps coming to me.  It's getting stronger and more forceful which is telling me we don't have much time left.  I've been running around my house crawling out of my skin. He wont let me rest... can someone please tell me if this is happening to them too?  Is anyone preparing, should I?  There are so many other things that are going on right now too, but If I keep writing this will become a book! 

This was very hard for me to put out here.  I've never talked to anyone about this except God.  I pray there is someone out there that can help me discern this.  I am moved every day to try to save my family... there is not a moment that goes by that Jesus is not on my brain... I feel exhausted and exhilerated all mixed into one!  Ok... nuff said..... I do love you all my brothers and sisters.  Even if we never meet face to face here, I'm sure we'll have a wonderful feast together someday in Heaven.... I'll introduce you to my Mom!  

Your Sister in Christ...
Lisa
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Hello everyone,  as you all know, I am very new to this forum... I have been fighting with God for 2 years now and I need help.  I guess I should say more like fighting myself over what God has been telling me to do.  Every time I get deep into prayer I always get led back to one sentence " you must prepare for the battle"  At first, I thought I was nuts... yes, just off my rocker because I was going through a major life event.  My mother, who was my best friend and spiritual guide, had emphesyma.  2 years ago it got very bad and it landed her in the hospital in respitory failure.  She had a do not resusitate(?) order, but when the doctor asked me, I couldn't let her go. She was only 64.  I went to her and told her that if they didn't put her on a venilator that she would die... I didn't even pray about it at the most important time... I did the selfish thing and made the doctor save her life.  She was in a coma for a week.  I barely left her side, at the time I had 2 boys under 4yrs... Thank God for my family.  I spent many hours in deep prayer and God told me that he led me to save her so that relationships would be mended, but then she would die.  I don't know about anyone else, but when I talk with God, I can hear him.  Most people would think I was crazy and sometimes, I feel I am, but my Mom understood because she had the same kinds of gifts as I.  He also told me that I would have to pull these people together and show them my strength.  I'm the baby of the family... I have two brothers who are 9 & 13 years older than I.. so of course, they have always treated me like a baby (even though I'm now 36!)  Mom came out of the coma and that was the happiest and sadest day of my life because I knew she was not going to live very much longer.  Her and my oldest brother had been estranged for many many years and because of that my aunt had a huge hate for him.  By the end of the week all relationships were fixed.  She even forgave me for not letting her go (even though I still feel guilt over it)  She suffered so very much.  God, this is so painful to write, I miss her so much and I feel so alone without her here.  I'm sorry I totally got away from my original thought,  I guess I needed to let this burden go.  I held her in my arms and sang to her as she was struggling to breathe... a day after everyone said thier peace she went into respitory failure again...to watch it once was horrible, but to see her suffer like this twice was just unbearable. I just held her and I sang the song she used to sing to me when I was a baby and I prayed over her and sang over and over for hours.  right before she passed I could see her spirit pulsating.  It was a bright white and so beautiful.  How I could feel happy and so miserable at once is beyond my comprehension.  I knew she was about to leave me so I threw myself on top of her and pleaded for her not to leave me yet.  I felt her spirit move right through me and the peace and love that filled me was just undescribable.  And then she was gone. 

Now that she is gone, I don't have anyone to tell these things that happen to me.  She used to guide me in every way.  She knew if it was from God.  Since then I have had so many visions, dreams things I can't explain.  I'm scared because of things I think I know and don't want to know.  Do you guys understand any of this?  Ever since my mom has gone home God keeps telling me to get ready for battle.  Like I am actually going to be fighting... He wants me to learn how to survive out in the wilderness... stock up, things like that.  Every time I get this from him I push it aside, thinking I'm just going nuts, but it keeps coming to me.  It's getting stronger and more forceful which is telling me we don't have much time left.  I've been running around my house crawling out of my skin. He wont let me rest... can someone please tell me if this is happening to them too?  Is anyone preparing, should I?  There are so many other things that are going on right now too, but If I keep writing this will become a book! 

This was very hard for me to put out here.  I've never talked to anyone about this except God.  I pray there is someone out there that can help me discern this.  I am moved every day to try to save my family... there is not a moment that goes by that Jesus is not on my brain... I feel exhausted and exhilerated all mixed into one!  Ok... nuff said..... I do love you all my brothers and sisters.  Even if we never meet face to face here, I'm sure we'll have a wonderful feast together someday in Heaven.... I'll introduce you to my Mom!  

Your Sister in Christ...
Lisa
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Hello everyone,  as you all know, I am very new to this forum... I have been fighting with God for 2 years now and I need help.  I guess I should say more like fighting myself over what God has been telling me to do.  Every time I get deep into prayer I always get led back to one sentence " you must prepare for the battle"  At first, I thought I was nuts... yes, just off my rocker because I was going through a major life event.  My mother, who was my best friend and spiritual guide, had emphesyma.  2 years ago it got very bad and it landed her in the hospital in respitory failure.  She had a do not resusitate(?) order, but when the doctor asked me, I couldn't let her go. She was only 64.  I went to her and told her that if they didn't put her on a venilator that she would die... I didn't even pray about it at the most important time... I did the selfish thing and made the doctor save her life.  She was in a coma for a week.  I barely left her side, at the time I had 2 boys under 4yrs... Thank God for my family.  I spent many hours in deep prayer and God told me that he led me to save her so that relationships would be mended, but then she would die.  I don't know about anyone else, but when I talk with God, I can hear him.  Most people would think I was crazy and sometimes, I feel I am, but my Mom understood because she had the same kinds of gifts as I.  He also told me that I would have to pull these people together and show them my strength.  I'm the baby of the family... I have two brothers who are 9 & 13 years older than I.. so of course, they have always treated me like a baby (even though I'm now 36!)  Mom came out of the coma and that was the happiest and sadest day of my life because I knew she was not going to live very much longer.  Her and my oldest brother had been estranged for many many years and because of that my aunt had a huge hate for him.  By the end of the week all relationships were fixed.  She even forgave me for not letting her go (even though I still feel guilt over it)  She suffered so very much.  God, this is so painful to write, I miss her so much and I feel so alone without her here.  I'm sorry I totally got away from my original thought,  I guess I needed to let this burden go.  I held her in my arms and sang to her as she was struggling to breathe... a day after everyone said thier peace she went into respitory failure again...to watch it once was horrible, but to see her suffer like this twice was just unbearable.  I just held her and I sang the song she used to sing to me when I was a baby and I prayed over her and sang over and over for hours.  right before she passed I could see her spirit pulsating.  It was a bright white and so beautiful.  How I could feel happy and so miserable at once is beyond my comprehension.  I knew she was about to leave me so I threw myself on top of her and pleaded for her not to leave me yet.  I felt her spirit move right through me and the peace and love that filled me was just undescribable.  And then she was gone. 

Now that she is gone, I don't have anyone to tell these things that happen to me.  She used to guide me in every way.  She knew if it was from God.  Since then I have had so many visions, dreams things I can't explain.  I'm scared because of things I think I know and don't want to know.  Do you guys understand any of this?  Ever since my mom has gone home God keeps telling me to get ready for battle.  Like I am actually going to be fighting... He wants me to learn how to survive out in the wilderness... stock up, things like that.  Every time I get this from him I push it aside, thinking I'm just going nuts, but it keeps coming to me.  It's getting stronger and more forceful which is telling me we don't have much time left.  I've been running around my house crawling out of my skin. He wont let me rest... can someone please tell me if this is happening to them too?  Is anyone preparing, should I?  There are so many other things that are going on right now too, but If I keep writing this will become a book! 

This was very hard for me to put out here.  I've never talked to anyone about this except God.  I pray there is someone out there that can help me discern this.  I am moved every day to try to save my family... there is not a moment that goes by that Jesus is not on my brain... I feel exhausted and exhilerated all mixed into one!  Ok... nuff said..... I do love you all my brothers and sisters.  Even if we never meet face to face here, I'm sure we'll have a wonderful feast together someday in Heaven.... I'll introduce you to my Mom!  

Your Sister in Christ...
Lisa
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Share all you have freely Lisa. If you know that He wants you to share then the best thing is to lift the burden from your chest and let it flow. I am sure you will feel much better for it.


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Lisa,

You bring-up so many points that are so important to everyone, that I'm having trouble trying to begin to offer any useful suggestions.  What I thought I'd do is try and offer some help with the burden you feel becuase I've struggled with that so much myself in the past.

If I've understood you correctly, you're carrying a heavy burden becuase you feel you were disobedient to God for wanting to keep your mom with you longer.  You feel that by asking that she be recessitated and that she suffered, you have sinned by causing her suffering.  Her suffering was God's will and was for His purpose of healing.

Maybe we could look at it from your mother's perspective first.  Since she was your spiritual guide and you learned so much love from her, I'm sure you'd agree that she loved God and wanted to do His will right?  All I can say about that is if I were in her place and I could bring about the healing of your family through my suffering, I would gladly suffer.  When your mom stands beside the sea of glass singing along with you a song of thanks and joy that has never been sung before, what joy will be in her heart that the suffering of the body that she doesn't need anymore brought about the healing of those she loved.

I can't say whether or not you sinned.  Judgement doesn't belong to me.  But if you have, and you've come to Jesus in your heart and asked for forgiveness, and BELEIVED that it will be granted, then it has been granted to you.

I've asked for forgiveness for my crimes and didn't find peace.  It was because I didn't beleive it.  I kept on asking and asking and yet peace eluded me.  I felt so bad for what I had done.  Then I realized that it is by faith that you are healed.  If you don't beleive that your are washed clean, then you are not.  Remember this; not only are you forgiven if you plead the blood of Jesus in your defense, but the record of your transgression is blotted-out from the record.  God will remeber it no more.  It was that truth that set me free from my burden.  Because I came to Jesus with a broken heart, confessed to Him my sins and beleived His promise of redemption, my crimes were blotted-out and they never happened.  The reason He blotted out my sins is because a loving God would never want me to carry around the burden of my crimes.  He loves us and wants us to be free from the burden of guilt.

You mentioned the message you keep getting about preparing for battle and living in the wilderness.  If you're crazy then so am I because he's been telling me the same thing, and I feel I know exactly why.  But first, you must undestand what preparedness means.

It looks like the good folks who've responded to you have said that there is spiritual preparedness and physical preparedness and I'd certainly agree.  For a long time I felt I needed both, including food stores and money under the matress!  All I can do to address physical preparedness is point you to my namesake, King David.  Had he known as a youth that he would have to kill the giant Goliath, what would he have done to physically prepare for it?  Work-out and lift rocks and get really strong?  Even if he did that, left to his own devices he would have lost and been killed.  There was nothing he could have done to be prepared for what God had commanded him to do.  The reason he was given victory was not that he was physically ready, but because he was spiritually ready.  He beleived God and did what God instructed him to do.  His faith brought him victory.

What I can tell you about the end-times is this.  Money will do you no good.  Soon there will be a powerful force that will attempt to make you disobey God.  For those who refuse, at first they will not be allowed to buy or sell.  They will face economic boycott, so money will be useless to the faithful.  Actually it already is! Then in the end the elect will face death if they don't comply with the demand of those in power.  The only thing you need to fight that battle is the faith to accept death rather than disobey the commandments of your Father.  The reason you would go to the wilderness is to escape those who would have you disobey God or face death.  If that's the case, the Lord will provide for your well being.  He'll feed you and keep you warm while you hide from them.  So, to be prepared, you must strengthen your faith so that you would rather die than disobey God.  To find that faith you must realize that whether or not the body you have now is killed or not is irrelevant in the big picture.  Whatever man can take-away, God can restore.  The only thing to fear is that your faith will weaken and you'll accept the mark of the beast to preserve your life.  Those who try to preserve their life will lose it.  Those who give it up for God will be given everlasting life.
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Brothers and Sisters,

Thank you for your kind words of welcome.

To answer your question about water to drink, it is true the waters will be poisened.  The sea, the lakes, the streams and the rivers will flow as blood and kill all those who drink from them along with all the fish and aquatic life that dwells within them.

I'm sorry to answer your question with a question but I must.  Did the children of Israel bring with them their drinking water upon leaving Egypt?  If they had, could they have carried enough to have lasted them the 40 years they were commanded to be there?

Because they did not bring enough water with them, how did they survive?

As always my beloved, the answers to your questions are found in the Word of our Holy Father.  Please read Exodus 16:22-27.

I think it would also be useful for you to understand other verses of scripture from the book of Exodus as they reveal where you're going to get food and an important way you must show your obedience to the Father during the last days.  There are many, but while you're in Exodus, understand Exodus 16:2-32.

I'm sure our Brothers and Sisters will post here the Scripture sited for your contemplation.

I have one final suggestion to offer in hopes of providing you with the answer you seek.  Forgive me if this reads as an admonishment or correction.  For if it does, know that this correction does not come from me, for I am incapable of it.  My sinful heart is clouded by my transgression.  My eyes are all but blinded with the murky haze of my disobedience.  These words are not of me, for I am tarnished and imperfect in all ways.  These are instead the words of He who made me.

Carry your water if you wish.  Darling Lisa, carry your seed sacks if you wish.  They are a symbol of your erroneous desire to feed yourself, cloth yourself, preserve yourself.  The only reason your water tap today gives water or there is food on your plate is because it is the will of He who made the heavens, the earth, the sea and all that is within them.  For it is not by your hand that you are fed and given drink, but by He who made the Living Waters and planted the Tree of Life.

What will you say when the violent shaking of the earth splits open your water jugs and their contents are emptied into the soil?  What will you say when the seeds you plant wither and die when the rain does not fall upon them and the sun is blotted out from the sky?  Will you ask "Father, why did I spend my time of preparing filling sacks and jugs?".  Will you ask "Father, why did I put my faith in the things that I do instead of the things that You do?".  Will you say "Father, I've seen the cities built by man to provide shelter laid waste by Your hand.  I've seen the fields and crops planted by man to provide food burnt-up and left desolate.  Why Father did I not spend my time of preparing strengthening my faith in You?  Why did I not learn to obey your commandments and learn to cherish obedience to You rather than obedience to this world which has been utterly ruined before my eyes?". 

I see that my friends and beloved ones registered on this site often add a statement or quote at the bottom of their posts.  I haven't done this yet but I will.  Here is what it will say.  It is His message to you.

"Fear God and give glory to Him, for the hour of His judgement has come;and worship Him who made heaven and earth, the sea and the springs of water."  Babylon will fall, that great city of Rome (spiritual Babylon) because she has made all the nations drink of the wine of the wrath of her fornication. If anyone worships the beast and his image, and receives his mark IN his forehead or IN his hand, he himself shall also drink of the wine of the wrath of God, which is poured-out unmingled into the cup of His indignation.  Come out of the great harlot My people, lest you share in her sins, lest you receive of her plagues.

These are not exact representations of Scripture.  They are clarified so that you might see and understand.  This my Father commanded me.
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Our struggle is not against flesh and bones, but against powers and principalities. Our battle is staying faithful...Maranatha...and resisting the lies of thsoe who wish to kill us, and have us killed twice. Battle is right...as nothing is harder than choosing death instead of dishonoring God and converting int he end days.

Survivalists are all over the world. The food, shelter and hiding part will be easy. Go out to the woods, let God telly ou where to go, and you'll end up all together. He doesn't scatter His flock in times of danger, He puts them together, and places His sheepdogs amongst them. You're not crazy. You're more sane than most. You want to be yearning instead of yawning, and that's just fine.

By the way, where at in Va Beach? I'm out near oceanfront.
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Hello everyone,  as you all know, I am very new to this forum... I have been fighting with God for 2 years now and I need help.  I guess I should say more like fighting myself over what God has been telling me to do.  Every time I get deep into prayer I always get led back to one sentence " you must prepare for the battle"  At first, I thought I was nuts... yes, just off my rocker because I was going through a major life event.  My mother, who was my best friend and spiritual guide, had emphesyma.  2 years ago it got very bad and it landed her in the hospital in respitory failure.  She had a do not resusitate(?) order, but when the doctor asked me, I couldn't let her go. She was only 64.  I went to her and told her that if they didn't put her on a venilator that she would die... I didn't even pray about it at the most important time... I did the selfish thing and made the doctor save her life.  She was in a coma for a week.  I barely left her side, at the time I had 2 boys under 4yrs... Thank God for my family.  I spent many hours in deep prayer and God told me that he led me to save her so that relationships would be mended, but then she would die.  I don't know about anyone else, but when I talk with God, I can hear him.  Most people would think I was crazy and sometimes, I feel I am, but my Mom understood because she had the same kinds of gifts as I.  He also told me that I would have to pull these people together and show them my strength.  I'm the baby of the family... I have two brothers who are 9 & 13 years older than I.. so of course, they have always treated me like a baby (even though I'm now 36!)  Mom came out of the coma and that was the happiest and sadest day of my life because I knew she was not going to live very much longer.  Her and my oldest brother had been estranged for many many years and because of that my aunt had a huge hate for him.  By the end of the week all relationships were fixed.  She even forgave me for not letting her go (even though I still feel guilt over it)  She suffered so very much.  God, this is so painful to write, I miss her so much and I feel so alone without her here.  I'm sorry I totally got away from my original thought,  I guess I needed to let this burden go.  I held her in my arms and sang to her as she was struggling to breathe... a day after everyone said thier peace she went into respitory failure again...to watch it once was horrible, but to see her suffer like this twice was just unbearable.  I just held her and I sang the song she used to sing to me when I was a baby and I prayed over her and sang over and over for hours.  right before she passed I could see her spirit pulsating.  It was a bright white and so beautiful.  How I could feel happy and so miserable at once is beyond my comprehension.  I knew she was about to leave me so I threw myself on top of her and pleaded for her not to leave me yet.  I felt her spirit move right through me and the peace and love that filled me was just undescribable.  And then she was gone. 

Now that she is gone, I don't have anyone to tell these things that happen to me.  She used to guide me in every way.  She knew if it was from God.  Since then I have had so many visions, dreams things I can't explain.  I'm scared because of things I think I know and don't want to know.  Do you guys understand any of this?  Ever since my mom has gone home God keeps telling me to get ready for battle.  Like I am actually going to be fighting... He wants me to learn how to survive out in the wilderness... stock up, things like that.  Every time I get this from him I push it aside, thinking I'm just going nuts, but it keeps coming to me.  It's getting stronger and more forceful which is telling me we don't have much time left.  I've been running around my house crawling out of my skin. He wont let me rest... can someone please tell me if this is happening to them too?  Is anyone preparing, should I?  There are so many other things that are going on right now too, but If I keep writing this will become a book! 

This was very hard for me to put out here.  I've never talked to anyone about this except God.  I pray there is someone out there that can help me discern this.  I am moved every day to try to save my family... there is not a moment that goes by that Jesus is not on my brain... I feel exhausted and exhilerated all mixed into one!  Ok... nuff said..... I do love you all my brothers and sisters.  Even if we never meet face to face here, I'm sure we'll have a wonderful feast together someday in Heaven.... I'll introduce you to my Mom!  

Your Sister in Christ...
Lisa
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Mr. David, I receive your words for I believe they are from God.
Oh how peaceful I felt while reading it.

Next for our need for water, our need for food is the most critical.  Again the isrealites failed to believe that God would meet their needs.  They lacked faith in God's power and still didn't understand their privileges as God's people. But God faithfully provided for them anyway and their faith was further strengthened.
Gracious provision can encourage us to seek help during wilderness periods of our
own lives.

Roxygal, yes I understand you-I have the mommy concerns too. We always want what is best for our children. You are seeking God and putting Him in the center of your lives. You are the best mom right now! Always lean on Him.
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Mr. David,

What of Joseph's warning to Pharaoh to store up for 7 years because of a famine that was approaching?  Not relevent?



Lisa, how very interesting that you live in Virginia Beach.  I have been there.  And, yes, it is truely a wonderful place.  We toured Fort Story and the naval base there.

sojourner
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