Please pray for me. I've never done anything like this before but today I banged my head until I have a big red bump and then went downstairs to my workshop and cut my arm with glass several places. I've NEVER done this before but I felt good when I was finally finished cutting my arm. I'm completely empty. Lord God Fill my heart!

dearest hope.. get alone and call on Jesus.. stay until He comes to you.. and gives you peace.. and fills your heart with His love..

you can hope in His word.. because HE IS Faithful!! - seek Him.. WITH ALL YOUR HEART!!! and you WILL find Him! ..

my prayers are for you..

Will be saying a prayer for you....

Resist the enemy and he will flee.....

Father please fill his heart with your love. Prayers have been sent Hope.

What you have done is yield to a unclean spirit. You were able to carry it out because you were alone. This unclean spirit wants you to stay alone and justify the cutting. The unclean spirit is feeding you with that sense of satisfaction you are feeling. It is a lie, a trick and an attach of the temple of God. You, no doubt have been a bit depressed, perhaps you have been entertaining negative thoughts about yourself, your circumstances or your walk with God. Stop now! Do not let another thought stay for a moment. Make it unwelcome with a outloud command and then tell it, it is not stronger than the God who truly dwells within You!!! Keep pushing. Grab up the word of God and begin reading out loud. Any portion of the scripture spoken will repulse the unclean spirit. Call someone you KNOW is real before God. Someone that will come to your assistance! This person should pray immediately, and then come to you as soon as they can. You must know this, that we should be held accountable to another believer. We cannot hide anything from God, but we do try to hide things from each other. Bring this Godly person into your life, let them hold you accountable, speak the Word into your life, and they will stand in the gap for you until you are able to stand again on your own.

Do not, for a single moment, think this is no big deal! I know it is! You have to decide to fight, if not for yourself, then do it for the Integrity of Our God, for His temple, and for the testimony of Jesus Christ.

You will be getting fervent prayers from all your brothers and sisters here on this forum. But you must also act! Get to it! God is with you, and you will be a better Servant for the Lord and have an awesome testimony when this is all over!

believeHim

Dear Hope
The enemy has but a little time left, and like Jesus said he who endures to the end shall be saved. Times are so hard right now for all of us but we need to pray for each other to help us endure. Keeping our thoughts always on our Lord for He loves us!! I lift you up in prayer and ask for angels to surround you and protect you. We bind all evil spirits in the name of Jesus! Abba please send hope str ength and a measure of faith! We thank you Abba for hearing our prayers and we know that You will keep us close! All in the most precious name of all Jesus!!!!

Our sister needs our prayers! can we keep this at the top, so more folks will see it?
Hope, we are here for you. Don't doubt it. God is moving on your behalf. Thank you for sharing, and giving us the opportunity to lift you up in prayer. It is one of the blessings God gives His children, to intercede for one another and join together. One body, caring for all its precious parts.

Glory to God Almighty for what He is creating you to be. A vessel, perfectly fashioned for its Holy purpose.

ask God to grant you grace unto repentance
ask Him remove any unholy spirits and fill you
with His Holy Spirit
God's Spirit will fill you and keep you
Be honest with the Lord. He gives grace to the humble
The love of God is yours Your Salvation is now
Jesus saves today. Renew your mind with the washing with the water of the word.
He keeps those in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on Him.

even more prayer.. Father.. please deliver mightily.. be her buckler and shield.. and may the end be Glory to your Name!

Well....thank you all from my heart. You're prayers are so sweet and strong. Your love shows. I need to fall on my knees and that is exactly what I'm going to do tonight. I feel like I had some sort of breakdown or something today. My actions are disgusting and my arm hurts too. The strange thing about it was I knew this was sinful and evil but I just couldn't stop. I just hated myself today so badly and went nuts. Please believe I've never done this before.

I love our Father in heaven Jesus Christ. I will never turn away from Him. I've always said that..."I will never turn away." However.....today maybe I did just that. I don't know what to say...except thank you. I have always had what I thought was strong faith and have always been able to tell evil to get behind me and KNOW...that whatever was creeping up on me was gone. Maybe I'm being tested?

Again..my deepest, most humble thank you to all of you.

God Bless
Hope

whatever the pain that you are trying to vent...

and cannot tell anyone about the secret of how you feel, what your life has been,
what is WAS...

it is NOT that now. you are not there, but bare the wounds yet. please listen to me.
when the thought of cutting comes to you resist it...in your mind push it away, speak
the blood of the lamb and continue until it subsides. call someone that you trust, or
for once trust someone that you call and tell them you are under an attack.

this is a time for the watchman to stand and pray for you.

there is nothing...nothing that you have done, or have experienced that God has not
already dealt with at the cross. YOU ARE CLEAN!

we are praying for you and there are many here that will personally stand in the gap
for you. you need to get rest, get into fellowship of worship and allow God to restore. OK?

signet

The Lord Jesus CHrist is able, so very ABLE to give you the victory over all sin!

You need to hold onto Jesus Christ, you need to trust Him in everything, when you are struggling
with any sin at all, any doubt or loneliness or depression or sickness or sadness or anger or anything,,, Just stop everything and begin to pour your heart out to the one that bought you with His blood!

Think of this, He, Jesus, willingly, without any kind of protest, laid His Holy body against a splintered, hard wooden cross, watched silently, covered with blood from being scourged, as they drove spikes through His hands and feet, and then, they stood that cross up and ripped his flesh and muscle and ligaments even more, and then painfully and in agony He hung there till He died, so that He could deliver us from all of the sins that separated us from fellowship with Him and His Father!
All because He loves you so much.



He stepped out of the tomb that couldnt hold Him and declared victory over ALL SIN!

Now, you can boldly go before Him when you feel hopeless and alone! You and I have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ His Son!

But, we need to spend time seeking Him, we need desparately to make time for Him throughout the week, the day, and the hour!

How wonderful it is to moment by moment be in the Holy presence of the Lord God!

But, we, you and I and all of us that are called by His name need to spend time renewing our minds by the washing of the water of the Word, and daily singing spiritual hymns and songs of praise to and of our Lord!

One time, some years ago, I was very far away from the Lord, and I did terrible things to myself because I hated the loneliness that my sin caused as it separated me from the Lord, and I hated myself because I couldnt see the reflection of the Lord there within myself, I saw nothing of any value in me and no reason to live.

After the Lord brought hope to me, and gave me a spirit of repentance, I left that man that I was behind and buried him. Now, it is no longer I that live, but Christ in me!

You too need to become alive in Christ alone! Seek Him by spending lots of time in prayer and reading His word as I said at the beginning of this post.
The Lord Jesus knows all of your needs, but He wants you to simply seek Him.

If you seek the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul, you will find Him.

Hope, you are cared for and loved, and many here will be praying for you.
Many blessings to you In Christ,
Chris

At this juncture Hope, just don't lose "hope", He will not let His people perish, for this is why He told us the day's would be cut short. And Satan knows he has but a short time and the harlot is destroyed in one hour...these are comforts for us who are here alive in earth witnessing these things coming to pass!! These are His words coming to pass, so on the same note, we can count on His words as a blanket of comfort to guide us through this dark hour.

Many people love you, and you're only attacked because you were alone and caught off guard and vulnerable. Next time go to the Bible and read Psalms ALOUD. Anything will flee you, I promise!!!!!!
You are in my prayers, all of you in this forum are, we need to pray for one another as much as possible.

Much love in Yahshua's Name.

I am in agreement with reading scripture aloud. I admonish and advise all the time
to do this...fill your mouth and ears and mind with the word, and satan will flee, and
you will be transformed...

Hope,

I am praying for you but I am advising you to seek the help of either a Christian counselor or minister/priest? Cutting ones self is really serious business and you really need to talk out your problems with a professional. And yes, I am going to PM other members and ask them to pray for you.

Love you sister.

Al

Dearest Hope

please know i will be praying for you. i can relate to the cutting you are experiencing....i do it too sometimes when i dont know im conciously doing it. but if you focus and keep your eyes on God he will help you. i agree with Al, its good to talk about these things that are making you do this to yourself to a professional...i know its easier said then done....ive been there done that too with councilors...i still have to be put in a straight jacket and dragged there lol. but know im praying for you and am here if you need me. i hope you are feeling better and hope your head and arms arent hurting too much.

Take care of yourself and God bless you

Love Pinky

Hope,

A song that might encourgage you:

"Keep the Candle Burning"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-NV-KIEvShY

Please know that prayer warriors have got you covered in prayer.

Love,

Al

First Know that I love you!

I am sorry...when I read your post in my pm box today earlier, I have a picture of a peace of glassed in a persons hand, and there was blood on it. I know what I seen and didnt say a think. I feel really stoopied, and I am sorry that I didnt responed than. I had the same thing last night when I was up late to post my own requests, but didnt say a thing....I dissmissed it as If it was just something that was put there, like my mind was working over time. I am sorry first hand that I didnt listen to that...and that I didnt take the move to talk with you about it. We talk outselves out of things, I knew better but didnt listen. Sorry!


Second...and biggest reason I put it out of my mind is I have struggled with cutting. The kind that you did! I know it is a big step to talk about it. I have found I do it when I found that know one is hearing me, nor cares. I find I do it when others trys to domanate me in someway, as if that takes control back from them. I have scared my arms up doing that....

That sweet sister is a demon...it draw you with and addiction that your own body reseases in you when you cut. Indorfanes. Using it as a drug to make you feel better, not seeing that harm you are doing to yourself, the biggest joke is you doing it with your own hand. AS if others causing you pain isnt enought!!!

I came here to talk things out that was causing pain in myself, and driving me to hate others around me. I couldnt bring myself to tell others NO! OR STOP! oR I DONT LIKE THAT....OR i WANT....

I had to come to the point of stopping that things that sent me down that road. I recorded...looking back what drove me to do those things. Like the little digs other did about my weight and attacked on me by gossiping. The favortisem....I came to the point where I know they just dont have to like me, I dont need a thing from them and needed to just stop caring what they say about me. Just because they do things doesnt mean I have to react.

I found I cut my nails and kept them short. I kept lights off so i couldnt see to do it. I kept myself away from those that just didnt truelly care about me...as much as I could, and got as many around me as I could to chear me on to becoming that over comer Jesus wants and enables you and I to be!

There are many reasons way others cut...things that drives them to do it....but destroying onself will not help. Setting yourself free from those that want to keep you traped is!!!

Sister....Any time you need to talk, and pray over anything I am here for you!

I will not keep my mouth shut again!

Oh...and I have gone for months with out cutting and my arms are healed.

You are fearful and wonderful made. I painting, and G-d showed me what I am doing is thating and attacking his masterpeace. He is never done working on you! You are is masterpeace!

Hugs!

Dear hope,
At one point in the past of most of us, we felt as you just did.
The enemy entertaining you with dispair, which is a LIE.

Several times have I been so down, felt my life was totally worthless,
and every time Jesus showed up and said otherwise!
He picked me up at the bottom of hell and
brought me back to the flock, lovingly Shepherd.

Lead us not in temptation, and deliver us from evil,
for THINE is the Kingdom, and the Power and the Glory, forever,
Amen.

This is a song G-d has used with me over and over again...even when things ride hard...I can feel a release come through worship that I can never even come close to any other way!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o6GZJS2A9G0
.........................................
when you don't want to face another day
seems like your life's one big mistake
failures from your former self chase you
listen close so you know what to do

you may not see it
you may not feel it
but im holding you tightly
your spirt is near me
so hold on hold on
it will not be long till its all over
child hold on hold on
lay your weary head upon my shoulder

the pain is beating down so faithfully
but my love is more falthful you will see
and the winds will show no mercy for your face
but your heart is safe secure inside my grace

and you may not see it
and you may not feel it
but im holding you tightly and your
spirt is with me so
hold on hold on it will not be long
till its all over
child hold on hold on
lay your weary head upon my shoulder

and you may not see it
and you may not feel it
but im holding you tightly and
your spirt is near me so hold on

hold on hold on hold on
child hold on hold on no
it wont be too long oh hold on
hold on it will not be long till its all
over child hold on hold on lay your weary head upon my shoulder
hold on hold on it will not be long till its all over
hold on hold on lay your weary head upon my shoulder
if you dont want to face another day hold on child hold on


I love you!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xPsJf82M4CM&NR=1


I just found this one...wow...feels right!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MXZ6tRXeFoQ&NR=1

Oh...one other things is...when there is things that I see coming that would have made me cut...I would than try and get something else to do in that time. Like painting...clean....sing...dance...It is good at times, to put those things out of your mind as you are doing something that is possive. Find your self worth. You loved sweet sister!

I have thought as well, that pic you have as your aver. that hazerd sigh. I believe that G-d wants you to learnt o turn the tables on the enemy. It is through your testamony that you will see healing, and be set free. That means begin to say to others what G-d has done with you, he wants you to take accound of him, not of yourself. Point to Christ, and you will find healing!

That sigh, turning the tables on that thoughts and feelings of worthless, of toxic feelings, and help others to run from what is toxic...helping others find those roots and you will be finding it so easy to fellow suit! Jesus loved and died for you as you where yet in sin, and helps lead you out of it, each and every day.
amen!

May I add, that I found the Lord's Prayer to be the most powerful prayer ever,

since these are Jesus own words,
since they contain a line for every situation possible,
since everyone can learn them and remember to use,
since the Lord's Prayer will make every demon flee.

i am praying ...

Dearest hope,
I apologize for not seeing your request sooner. My good friend Al brought it to my attention, thank God. Dear one...you are soooooooo NOT alone. That is really what you need to know...you are NOT alone. You have some people here who care and have experienced what you are going through.

There is now therefore no condemnation for those of us who are in Christ Jesus our Lord, who have passed from death unto life. No amount of former failures, no amount of people who have misjudged you, no amount of hurt, no amount of guilt....none of that can separate us from the Love of our Lord, Jesus Christ. Even when our hope is practically extinguished, even our faith and even our love (like a small, burning ember); our Lord comes along and GENTLY fans the flame! A burning ember He will not snuff out.

Un-clean/unholy/demonic spirits instigate accusatory thoughts, thoughts of excessive guilt, thoughts of hopelessness/despair, etc. Do you have a good friend who is well versed in scripture and prayer? For those of us who have suffered much in this life, it is very good to have a prayer partner...and it is good even if it can only be for a few minutes to lay hands on one another praying the prayer of faith, anointing one another with oil for healing and believing in our Lord to deliver us from all evil.
It is not uncommon for my husband and I to lay hands on one another daily. I notice a tremendous difference through prayer.

I was not what I would consider to be an "addicted" cutter. I did it off and on for a brief span of my life from the age of 17 until I was 20. I struggled with great amounts of depression and suicidal thoughts...including some (somewhat) attempts. My Mom committed suicide when I was 18. There is a thread in the doctrinal debates section titled "Suicide"...(as a weapon). First of all though, I want you to be aware that there is an individual in the thread who views suicide as an unpardonable sin. But myself, Al, Pinky, Miki, Godsword, Zeetz and many others have shared (including) testimonies in this thread....and brought forward the truth that our God looks upon our heart in determining judgment...it is God's judgment, not our own...and I do deeply believe that our God is very MERCIFUL and full of GRACE. I do sincerely believe that you will be comforted by the thread.

Hope, it's no coincidence that you chose the nickname "hope" because THAT is precisely what you NEED. Please believe me, I know from experience. I've likened myself to a plastic pitcher with a hole in the bottom. When God pours the water of hope in, it drains quickly out of the bottom. I've had to really FIGHT to have hope. Yes, sometimes we need to fight for our hope, fight for our peace, FIGHT. Whatever things are noble, whatever things are pure, whatever things are GOOD, think upon these things dear one.

I'm praying for you!
(((((((((hugs)))))))))))) and love, Kim

I am agreeing with Al here. There is always a Christian coundelor or minister just a phone call away. Yes I will pray for you all day but please know God is needing you to reach out to a counselor or minister. If you dont have one than look in the yellow pages of a phone book and God will lead you to the right one.
Please know we care.

Please know that I have been holding you up in prayer, Hope.

Praying for you Hope, I prayed briefly yesterday and will continue... and get my DH to pray when he gets home.
I have often come under attack and been tempted to do the same, and other destructive things.... you're not the only one.... please speak to a professional about what you are going through and we will all keep praying for you. I'm saying this because those old endorphins are very addictive and when they kick in you might not be able to stop.
Hope, you are a precious child of God and He loves you so, so much.... He will pick you up when you fall, time after time...
much love and prayers x x x

The cutting of the skin, is the same as blood letting . . . the action of seeing the blood exit to
remind THE BRAIN, of the life in the blood.


All people have limits. All of us were born with measures of faith and gifts.


Along the way, we may trade and/or exchange in our thinking, that the cutting away of the issue
is our duty.

And this starts, the spiral to SELF-inflict and/or wound the skin of the body.


The cutting of ALL cords that bind us, is a spiritual faith in the Lord as our ACTION Messiah.


Not just a belief, with pretty little words.

When you have cut the skin, the struggle to keep from bleeding yourself into some type of mental
relief is a battle.


YOU MUST, this minute, contact a trusted pastor or friend.


You must, ask for the anointing of oil upon you. Do not think you can do this alone.

The enemy is waiting to see if you will seek spiritual healing, for this disorder. GET WITH
A PRAYER GROUP PROMPTLY.

The Lord, knows thousands who cut themselves. THE LORD, has releasement for you !




http://daughtersofgodprayerclothmission.bl...rd-of-lord.html
[HEBREW] Word, `SWORD` = ZAYIN ( the 7th Hebrew Alphabet )



HERE ARE SOME MEANINGS OF THE SWORD [ZAYIN]:

Zayin

Wife, Sabbath, The All, Completion, Perfection, Fullness, Fullness of the Godhead, movement, Adultery, Weapon, Day of Judgment

Never forget Hope, God loves you and so do we. Ask him for deliverance. Please keep us posted on how you are doing. We love you and are praying for you to have peace.

Still praying for you Hope.

The Lord is faithful to continue the work that He has begun in you and to bring it to completion.

He is there with you, and you are in the minds and prayers of many, because we love you Hope.

Keep trusting in Christ and do what He is telling you to do.

Love to you in Christ alone,
Chris

The devil's a liar. You can do ALL things through through Christ who strengthens you.

Not some things...ALL things. It just takes time and patients.

Look around you today... I mean really look. God is showing you the answer and he will confirm it if you let him, receive it and believe it.

We're holding you up...

Hope, the LORD LOVES you, and HE would never want you to harm yourself.

Dear FATHER, I am joining all the others here and standing in the GAP for Hope. We together, stand firm on YOUR WORD. We belive that YOU can change any situation, and turn it into a TESTIMONY of YOUR LOVE. We believe, that
BY JESUS STRIPES Hope will be HEALED. When Hope is weak, it is YOUR STRENGTH that she is able to do all things. That Hope is YOUR CHILD, and she is LOVED by YOU. That YOU ALONE, are her BUCKLER and SHIELD. That she is IN YOU, and the enemy has no hold over her. That YOU are with her ALWAYS. That no weapon formed against Hope, can prosper. That YOU have given Hope a SOUND MIND. LORD, we ask that you release Hope from depression and self mutilation, in JESUS NAME. We ask you to wrap YOUR ARMS around her and COMFORT her. LORD, we ask that you give Hope a STRONG TESTIMONY of YOUR LOVE, for her, and use this for YOUR GLORY. We thank you LORD, for all you have done, are doing and will do for Hope. We thank you for LOVING each of us, and sending JESUS to us and for us. It is through YOUR SALVATION, that we can boldy approach YOUR THRONE, on behalf of Hope, and know, without any doubt that YOU ALONE, will hear our cries for her. LORD, we ask that you remove all sin and temptation from Hope's path, and that the enemy is sent packing, and can no longer have any control over her thoughts or actions. It is through JESUS BLOOD, that we plead her cause to you. We thank you FATHER, for YOUR MERCY and GRACE, is always SUFFICIENT. We thank you too, that Hope, came and asked for prayer. Bless her as she comes in and goes out. Place a hedge of protection around her, and gently guide her down the NARROW PATH, that leads to YOUR THRONE. In JESUS NAME, AMEN.

Amen to all. I agree, to get that support you need around you is the key...with out it, I fall, and hard!

We love you so Hope...you have hope given to you in the name of Jesus!

I send you a big hug right now, just so you know Im still praying. Please let us know that you are doing good as well. I have someone that holds me accountable to my struggles, one that knows me and knows when I am struggling. I agree as well, there is no condemnation in Jesus, he leaves no room for it! so reval in you freedom of that truth, and when you have need, run to him and fast!

Just so we know again that You, Lord God are able
there is no limit to Your Love, no room for hatred,
then also hear our prayer for Hope, in Jesus Name.

amen

Still bringing you before the Lord Hope, love and blessings x You are in our thoughts and I am sure that many of us feel the same, that we will keep raising you up.

Wow...I've never had so many people pray for me all at once. Your prayers have layed on my heart and I just love all of you so much. I have not done anything to myself and really don't think I will do such a thing again. I don't know how to express how much love I have felt. The love of God and the love of all of you. Your wisdom and faith is strong...powerful and humbling for me.

How quickly the enemy can come upon us. To think I even did that? I didn't realize I was being attacked but I sure was. We think we are fine and our faith strong and protected..then out of the blue.....our sadness or whatever comes over us and we do stupid stuff. If I had just gone to the foot of the corss like I'm always saying on the forum...I would not have done that.

I have felt the angels and the spirit of love come over me through your prayers. How can I ever type anything that will tell you how much I love you for your compassion and for "standing in for me."

My love to you and this forum.

Hope

Hope,

You are a much loved sister in the Lord...We are all family. Please reach out your arms to God for HE loves you so much. Good night, sister. Have a wonderful thanksgiving. Sleep with the angels.

Love,

Al

stay vigilant dear sister...

the best way is to get in the pattern of worship for He inhabits your praise.
when you think sad...sing to God, speak the Blood, rebuke the adversary, and sing.

i woke up today and was weary...i made myself worship until the weariness left and
then got up for a day assignment. the day unfolded in a spiritual way and i am ok
this evening...even with the weight of holidays and all that entails.

please worship.

thank you Lord, I thank you Lord, I worship you Lord, I adore you Lord,
you are perfect in all your ways Lord, you lift me up Lord, you heal me Lord and
your are great in mercy and justice Lord. hear me give praise unto your name, Yeshua
King of Kings, have mercy upon me Lord and know that I love you Lord, thank you Lord,
thank you for everything that my life is, thank you for redeeming my soul and loving me,
thank you Jesus, thank you and bless you, I bless you will all that I am...for I belong to
you alone, thank you Lord...Baruch Ha Shem, praise the Name, b'shem Yeshua, the
name of Yeshua Jesus, Messiah...

do this!

love,
signet