Thanks Signet and Betty x
Signet, yes I have been baptised... about 10 years ago, but have been going through a long desert experience which I feel now be connected to the dreams.
Betty, thanks for the reply, it has given me much to think about.
I think the difference between the dreams is that the second baby made it, there was hope and she recovered really quickly. I find this interesting as the older dream was when I was at the old church, where I felt like I wasn't flourishing and there was no water.... the bath was drained except for the baby.
Sorry I am probably rambling as I feel unwell! But the older church has been such a hard time in my life. DH and I went (with the 3 kids) for 4 years and I am sad I didn't see earlier that it wasn't really doing us any good. DH kept wanting to leave but I kept thinking that it was a problem with us, rather than the church, since I've had it ingrained in me that we should be loyal etc, and stick it out. But I really shoud have see the signs and the complete lack of support, the quenching of the spirit and legalism earlier.
In the first church, we arrived as migrants and the pastor put a lot of pressure on us to sign up quickly and DH felt very pressurised to join. They wouldn't let us do anything really to help out in church until we had signed their membership and then year after year, we gradually gave up being involved as they wouldn't let us.... except for some children's ministry work I have done and another ministry which I got involved in really just to win approval rather than it being what God had equipped me for, which ended up being quite depressing and devisive! Fellowship at this church has also been very hard, except for my best friend and her family, who have also left now. We found that our 5 year old son was misbehaving in church so much that we had to separate during the service so he wouldn't fight with his sisters or distract people.
In the new church, we feel a real sense of God's spirit and of the congregation really loving one another.... not a charade, real love. My son during the first worship session stood with his arms raised, something he has never done before, and in the 2nd service he remained with me (as he was too shy to go to Sunday school without his older sister, who was sick at home with DH) and he ended up going up the front for the altar call and giving his life to Jesus. I have begun to quickly make friends and we are all settling (the 2 families) in nicely. It's a much more charismatic church, which is good because during this desert time I felt that God was leading me here to the Christian forum and to you guys

Interestingly, the connection of Thalia, my friend's baby may also have more meaning - my friend we met briefly at the old church. During that time both my best friend and myself welcomed her back to our houses and confided in her that we were finding church hard. She is also a migrant, newly arrived, and we agreed that whatever church her and her husband moved to, that we would remain friends. She encouraged us to try out this church and we have talked lots on what to expect and what to let go...
Interestingly I also came under lots of attack before I left the old church, which Betty kindly prayed for me about... and now I am beginning to experience freedom and that there is hope again.
Thanks Betty for all the encouragement you have been and for pointing me many times to father God x x x