I am so very very blessed. I just want you all to celebrate at our GOOD GOD with me.
Lately, if you all have been following my posts at all, you know that I've been struggling financially. I've lost my house, declared bankruptsy, and have moved my family into an apartment. Let me not deceive you. All of this was our fault. We managed money poorly. I've repented for handling what God has given us so graciously in selfish ways- and am living with my brother to save money and am TRYING (I die daily) to be a good stewart. For the first time, I feel like I am making wise decisions with our money.
However, with my hubby going to school, we are still broke. You reap what you sow. It took 5 years to get into this mess, it'll take awhile to get out.
Over the past two or so months, blessings have been thrown at me. My Christian mentor/pastor has given me gas money without me even asking (and the best part of her giving is that she doesn't make me feel like a pauper). I blessed her last year in a hard time, and she is blessing me now. I wouldn't have been able to buy food for little Noah without the $20 she's given me from time to time to "get us through".
However, God has done more than that.
The other day Jason (my hubby) walked outside and his tire was flat. We knew we couldn't afford to buy a tire- but Jason was going to go to the tire shop to "plug the hole"- which tire places do it for free. He showed up at the store, and the tire guy took one look at the tire and said that a plug wouldn't work. We needed a new tire. Jason quickly told the man that we couldn't afford it at this time and was about to leave. The guy said, "Hold on!" He gave us a FREE tire and just asked that we bring our business back the next time. Praise God!!!
But God has done more than that.
I have gotten $500 in the mail "unexpectedly" over the last month... Praise Him.
However, God has done more than that.
My husband and I had a bill that we had to pay by tomorrow (Oct. 1st) that was almost $800. We also had to pay rent. My paycheck is less than this amount... and we still needed money to pay for daily expenses for the next two weeks. Yesterday, I cried all the way home. I asked God for mercy. He was my last stop. I had no where else to go but up. I prayed and cried and asked for a heavenly loan.
I walked through the door- and Jason (my husband) said that the bill had been "forgiven". We don't have to pay it. I looked in the mail and had another $70 check. God prompted me to go to Psalm 70:
Make hast, oh God, to deliver me; make haste to help me, O Lord. Let them be ashamed and confounded that seek after my soul: let them be turned backward, and put to fonsion, that desire my hurt. Let them be turned back for a reward of shame that say, Aha, aha. Let all those that seek thee rejoice and be glad in thee: and let such as love thy salvation say tointinually, Let God be magnified. BUT I AM POOR AND NEEDY: MAKE HASTE UNTO ME, O GOD, THOU ART MY HELP AND MY DELIVERER; O LORD, MAKE NO TARRYING!!!
God is Good. I gave my tithe today in my paycheck. I know that God is my provider and He is the one that is sustaining me.
In all this, He is teaching me to rely on Him alone and also teaching me something about what it is to be humbled.
CELEBRATE WITH ME!!!