So I was laying in bed this arvo trying to get a rest - I was feeling well out of kilter, probably because of my medication and the fact that the step daughter was coming back home after spending the weekend at her mothers - between the pair of them they have caused a lot of stress..... I don't quite recall exactly when I said the words - okay Lord - just tell me....tell me something, talk to me - something along those lines - coz I just don't get this whole mess at all.
I have this internal dialogue going constantly at the moment - I know He hears me. But you know - the biggest thing I have difficulty with is asking for what I want. Like most people.
Anyway - I as reading - umm.....a book called "Twisted Scripture" - 20 ways to misinterpret the bible or somethig like that - it's in the bedroom and I'm not going to get it....it's about the ways various cults misinterpret and twist the Bible to suit their needs.
I was just about to drop off and I saw in my head a person who looked like a person I do know. She came in and she said - you've had a visitor....who is Hannah? I looked at her - and I said - no - only my step-daughter and her name is similar - it's Savannah. No - she said - who is Hannah - what does the name Hannah mean to you?
Well, I know 2 Hannah's - one is the eldest daughter of our pastor - but she lives in a different state - and the other is the daughter of an old school friend of mine. I used to go out with her father - and she was a lovely little girl, but I've not seen her in about 7 years or so.....she's 16 now. And really - I've not thought in depth about her for a while - she sometimes sneaks into my mind - I've known her since she was a baby and although precocious - an absolute sweetie....(a bit snobby now according to another young friend of mine).
I also knew Hannah was a Biblical name - but had to look her up, along with the name meaning.
Hannah means Grace of God. I also know that Hannah in the Bible was the preferred wife of Elkanah, childless and she prayed for a son that she said she would give to the priests to raise as a Nazirite and had Samuel. from Wikipedia "Classical Rabbinical literature, Hannah was considered as a prophetess, and her Song as prophecy, an opinion presented for example by Jonathan ben Uzziel. Hannah is also singled out in Rabbinical literature for being the first to refer to God as Elohim ḤSabaoth (God of hosts). "
I think I'm right in saying that Sammy boy was the one who heard his name being called and went to his head priest dude and said what do you want - three times - and the priest dude said - say yes Lord what do you want?
I've done that several times when I've heard my name called like that - but I never get a response it seems.
So if anyone has some light to shed here - It's all been a bit quiet recently with this sort of thing....and I just can't get my head straight enough at the moment to find that little kernel of peace to grab hold of.
cheers
M.