Thank you all so much for your prayers and encouraging words, My eyes are wet with tears as I write this, I love you all so much and would just love to be able to give each of you a big hug. So I may never get that chance here but I will make a point to look each of you up and hug you for you are my dear brothers and sisters.
I am just so tired. Physically and mentally and sometimes even spiritually. If any one ever said that Serving God with your WHOLE HEART isn't work I would have to say that they weren't doing it with their WHOLE HEART . I am not saying that they don't serve the Lord but to strive to do it with your WHOLE HEART, MIND, BODY, AND SOUL is work. I live with a family who don't serve GOD, they serve themselves. Everyday I have to hear cuss words, I hear talk about the evil world and I see ppl doing drugs, I pray for them but I can't force them to KNOW GOD in a real andf personal way. I live with a son-in-law who believes with his whole heart that he is going to heaven that his heart is right with God, at the same time he speaks of evil does evil and does not believe in the Bible oh he says that some of it may be true but he don't believe that God talked to ppl and told them to write this stuff down. It is so heart breaking knowing that he is so sure that he is going to heaven, what do I tell him, if I tell him that every word in the Bible is of God he gets mad and starts saying that I am judging him. I have to take medication because I have a cronic pain disorder and he tells me that smoking pot is no different then me taking drugs because pot is a natural herb and GOd put it there to be smoked. OH PLEASE SOMEONE TELL ME HOW TO WITNESS TO HIM WITHOUT MAKING HIS HEART EVEN HARDER. My heart is just breaking for him and he keeps doing drugs even knowing that he could loose his children,
I believe in prayer with all my heart and every day GOd answeres them. Yesterday HE brought my daughters dad here for court we didn't know till the last min that he would be here and it was going to put my daughter in a bind with the courts if he hadn't showed up cause she bonded him out on tickets. GOD INTERVENED...PRAISE THE HOLY NAME OF OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST....
My daughter is very sweet and she tends to believe evyr thing that her husband says to her. The other day I wanted to watch a movie...JESUS....she didn't want my granddaughters to watch because they don't want them to get confussed about life....but they can watch all the vampite and gorry and scary movies that they watch murder and rape and all the evil stuff I am so burdened for their souls but I know that GOD IS IN CONTROL...and I will not fall into the snare of satan's traps....I may get upset and say I wish I just had a place of my own I wish I could just be alone, but that isn't where God wants me right now, I have placed my FAITH IN CHRISt and that is where it WILL REMAIN. I am tired but God is my strength He will uphold me when the storms come crashing into my heart and I WILL HOLD FAST to HIS PROMISES everyday...I WILL NOT GIVE UP BECAUSE HE DID NOT GIVE UP ON ME......Satan knows how much I have been praying and how GOd is answereing the prayers of many....and that is why I am being attacked, if I wasn't about my Fathers business Satan would be leaving me alone. So now that I think about it I am glad that I see the darts coming becasue that is how I really know that I am doing something right for God. PRAISE THE LORD ALL YE PEOPLE PRAISE HIM ALL THE DAY LONG AND EVEN INTO THE DARKNESS OF THE NIGHT BECAUSE WHERE GOD IS THERE IS NO DARKNESS. O" HOW I LOVE JESUS.....
Amber, my daughter's) grandpa needs prayers he may be close to death and was just in the VA hospital in Poplar Bluff MO and was realeased he had 2 blood transfusions and they didn't know why or where he was losing the blood he had had a heartattack please pray for him his name is Luther.....
Pray for her dad Kevin he is so strubg out on drugs that it is scary....
we need to keep all addicts in our prayers. Time is at hand and we need to be praying for a DIVINE INTERVENTION in the hearts of ALL LOST SOULS EVERYWHERE.....
Love to you all and my chin is up, and my head is bowed to God in Prayer for you all
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