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been feeling really depressed latley. Trying to fight it but nothing ever changes. I asked the Lord to heal me but the sadness doesn't go away. I started thinking about ending it all and not fighting it anymore because I'm tired of trying to stay afloat. I been having the urge to cut myself to numb the pain, but I been fighting it until tonight. I cut myself with a knife, but my skin wouldn't break. I did it over and over applying more pressue ,but I couldn't break my skin. I couldn't make myself bleed.
Oh sweetie! You are in my prayers! I know that life can get unbearable at times... but I pray that the Lord will bring some peace in your life. Please know that I am lifting you to the Father. Do you have some praise music? Get into the Word... read the Psalms... David was human just like we are and faced tough times as well, he poured his heart out to the Lord. I pray that you will do the same and let the Lord bring some healing in your life.
Your Friend in Christ,
Val
Messiahiscoming
Your Friend in Christ,
Val
Messiahiscoming
I agree with Val. The bible says to put on the garment of praise for the spirit of heavyness. It is diffucult to start but when you do, it will change for you. I'll pray for you. Father, I ask that you touch and restore unto Asitay the joy of salvation. Give Asitay peace I pray in Jesus name, amen.
The devil wants to cut you...Don't help him.
The Lord will never cut you out. He wants you to sing to him...
Which will it be? Cut or sing?
"O sing unto the LORD a new song: sing unto the LORD, all the earth" (Ps. 96:1).
"O sing unto the LORD a new song; for he hath done marvellous things: his right hand, and his holy arm, hath gotten him the victory" (Ps. 98:1).
The Lord will never cut you out. He wants you to sing to him...
Which will it be? Cut or sing?
"O sing unto the LORD a new song: sing unto the LORD, all the earth" (Ps. 96:1).
"O sing unto the LORD a new song; for he hath done marvellous things: his right hand, and his holy arm, hath gotten him the victory" (Ps. 98:1).
I agree..the devil will weave his way to try to convince you that the Lord has left you. He will NEVER leave you! Sing to the Lord..Yes sing with your whole heart! Flood your home with praise music..you'll be amazed how this helps. Throw open your shades and let the sun shine through and dance in the glow of our Lord...HE LOVES YOU..He is right there with you waiting for you to turn to His voice. His voice is not the one you're hearing right now..don't believe the lies that are being layed at your feet. Resist the temptation to harm your precious body...the temple where the Lord's Holy Spirit dwells.
Please keep us close too...don't shy away. It will help to let it all out. You are not alone in this. May the Lord strengthen you and protect you always.
Blessings to you Asitay...
Love, Lisa
Please keep us close too...don't shy away. It will help to let it all out. You are not alone in this. May the Lord strengthen you and protect you always.
Blessings to you Asitay...
Love, Lisa
QUOTE
Throw open your shades and let the sun shine through and dance in the glow of our Lord...HE LOVES YOU
And you're forgiven!!!
May the Lord be your strength and your exceeding great reward. +
Asitay, I have a good Scripture for you and you are going to like it!!! 
John 8 (King James Version)
King James Version (KJV)
John 8
1Jesus went unto the mount of Olives.
2And early in the morning he came again into the temple, and all the people came unto him; and he sat down, and taught them.
3And the scribes and Pharisees brought unto him a woman taken in adultery; and when they had set her in the midst,
4They say unto him, Master, this woman was taken in adultery, in the very act.
5Now Moses in the law commanded us, that such should be stoned: but what sayest thou?
6This they said, tempting him, that they might have to accuse him. But Jesus stooped down, and with his finger wrote on the ground, as though he heard them not.
7So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.
8And again he stooped down, and wrote on the ground.
9And they which heard it, being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning at the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst.
10When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee?
11She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.
NOW WATCH THIS!
As the "SINLESS ONE" Jesus should have been the one to STONE HER; yet he did not do it!!! He OVERRULED HIS OWN LAW!!! How so???
By GRACE...
WHat Jesus is telling you is that you don't stand in CONDEMNATION!!!
Rom 8:1 [There is] therefore now NO CONDEMNATION to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.
John 8 (King James Version)
King James Version (KJV)
John 8
1Jesus went unto the mount of Olives.
2And early in the morning he came again into the temple, and all the people came unto him; and he sat down, and taught them.
3And the scribes and Pharisees brought unto him a woman taken in adultery; and when they had set her in the midst,
4They say unto him, Master, this woman was taken in adultery, in the very act.
5Now Moses in the law commanded us, that such should be stoned: but what sayest thou?
6This they said, tempting him, that they might have to accuse him. But Jesus stooped down, and with his finger wrote on the ground, as though he heard them not.
7So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.
8And again he stooped down, and wrote on the ground.
9And they which heard it, being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning at the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst.
10When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee?
11She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.
NOW WATCH THIS!
As the "SINLESS ONE" Jesus should have been the one to STONE HER; yet he did not do it!!! He OVERRULED HIS OWN LAW!!! How so???
By GRACE...
WHat Jesus is telling you is that you don't stand in CONDEMNATION!!!
Rom 8:1 [There is] therefore now NO CONDEMNATION to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.
Oh, satan is getting to you. The Lord will never leave you. I agree just Praise God all you can. Music, scripture, prayer, and let Satan know who you hold on too with your heart.
Feeling for you, I use to self mutilate as a teenager a bit. I had those thoughts as well. Wish I knew the Lord back then. Praying so very hard for you.
In Christ
Sakia
Feeling for you, I use to self mutilate as a teenager a bit. I had those thoughts as well. Wish I knew the Lord back then. Praying so very hard for you.
In Christ
Sakia
Dear Asitay,
Thank you for being honest about your cutting. I do not know what you are going through right now, but I can tell you my story to let you know you are not alone and I care about you.
You know that when I was 11 years old I had a horrible eating disorder and almost died and went to hell. At the time the psychologist told my mom that this disease would never, never leave me in my life and it could morph into something else. That is was something I would have to fight the rest of my life. The psychologist was a born again Christian and she said that this disease (I call it spiritual warfare) would target me when I was under emotional stress throughout my life. Well it did, because then I ended up becoming bulimic and purging myself in various ways to get rid of the guilt of eating. After a while of that until I was about 16, it morphed again. I ended up drinking alcohol for a long time until I was freed by the Lord of it. I still feel during emotional stress that intense urge that I need to physically suffer to alleviate the intense turmoil I feel. I can feel the intense spiritual warfare that comes with this. On one side the demon says "you know you want to do it." Then on the other side when I did it, the other demon would say "look what you have done, you are a horrible person, God cannot forgive you for that." Then I just seemed to allow myself to get caught up in the cycle because then I started feeling overwhelmingly guilty about that I was hurting myself and then kept doing it because I did not want to feel the guilt that I was running from God.
I am not sure what kind of emotional stress you are going through, but if you want to tell me about it, I am here. The psychologist told my mom when I was 11 that my disease could morph into cutting as well.
Thank you for being honest about your cutting. I do not know what you are going through right now, but I can tell you my story to let you know you are not alone and I care about you.
You know that when I was 11 years old I had a horrible eating disorder and almost died and went to hell. At the time the psychologist told my mom that this disease would never, never leave me in my life and it could morph into something else. That is was something I would have to fight the rest of my life. The psychologist was a born again Christian and she said that this disease (I call it spiritual warfare) would target me when I was under emotional stress throughout my life. Well it did, because then I ended up becoming bulimic and purging myself in various ways to get rid of the guilt of eating. After a while of that until I was about 16, it morphed again. I ended up drinking alcohol for a long time until I was freed by the Lord of it. I still feel during emotional stress that intense urge that I need to physically suffer to alleviate the intense turmoil I feel. I can feel the intense spiritual warfare that comes with this. On one side the demon says "you know you want to do it." Then on the other side when I did it, the other demon would say "look what you have done, you are a horrible person, God cannot forgive you for that." Then I just seemed to allow myself to get caught up in the cycle because then I started feeling overwhelmingly guilty about that I was hurting myself and then kept doing it because I did not want to feel the guilt that I was running from God.
I am not sure what kind of emotional stress you are going through, but if you want to tell me about it, I am here. The psychologist told my mom when I was 11 that my disease could morph into cutting as well.
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