Its gone now and lately I wake up with joy and peace. I have a knowledge these days of the goodness and faithfulness of the Lord. I know that He will never leave me nor forsake me. I know that He has already supplied my ever need, healed me by His stripes, freed me from my bondages, seated me in the heavenlies, that I am dead and Christ is in me, that I have the mind of Christ, the faith of Christ, the life of Christ. I know that He has already given me all things pertaining to life and godliness. I know that He has forgiven me and that He has taken away my sin. I know these days that He has taken away even the desire to sin. I know that my old man is dead and buried and that He now lives in me.
The absolute joy of knowing His grace is overwhelming. Like John said: I must become less and He must become more. Daily as I take up my cross and decide to die to self (by and through His grace) I can see and feel Him rising. Something too wonderful is happening. I have searched so long for this.
I am a grown man but I find myself crying before the Lord so many times, but they are tears of thankfulness . Why me Lord? I am really so very much undeserving of anything from the Lord. I have sinned so much in the past, been so far away, did my own thing my way.
God is amazing. His Word has saved me. His Name is my strong Tower. I am so very safe in Him.
Just a small testimony as well: I was thinking of buying a wood-burning stove. Not that I need one, but they are lovely and I am on a farm with a lot of wood. It would warm the house. They are very expensive here because they are all old and people collect them. I decided not to spend money on one although I could probable buy one if I saved a bit. I just had this feeling in me that I would still like one, but now I am not going to buy it.
On Sunday I had guests and I did not mention it, but somehow somebody mentioned such a stove. I told them that I liked them as well. The next minute one guy said: I have such a stove and I have just restored it. You can have it for free. I will even deliver it for you
This is just one of many things that are happening
Thank you Father. I love you.
C