Yesterday was a cow of a day. To top off bad behaviour from a 3 year old - he locked me out of the house which just added one more straw to this camel's back....I lost it and ended up in tears.

I said to God - What have I done that you let this stuff happen - bills, debts that I wasn't aware of, naughty naughty children that I've tried everything I can think of - and others can think of - to change their behaviour....I'd just had enough. I was ranting and raving in my mind about stuff I should say to husband because this isn't just my load - but I'm carrying it for some reason. I've prayed and it seems things just get worse and worse.

Hubby comes home from grocery shopping and - FINALLY - says I may have found a church to go to - it's on Friday nights and it's for people who've been hurt by the church. Halleleujah! Nighttime comes and i'm beginning to feel better - positive now it's all hormones - but still asking God - why is this happening.....I open up and email sent via a soccer club website I administrate - or used to but the webmaster contact stuff still comes to me.......and it just sickens me. It's informing the club of my husband's 'legal' issues a few years ago. Something I'd urge him to tell the club about when he was voted onto the committee - but he refused. So now I'm in 'damage control' - I'M informing the club hierachy about what went on- because he won't - of course - his depression has been getting worse for the past few weeks now and he can't cope with anything at all - not even walking into the place he was working in up until last week - because he just wants to lose it. So now it has to come out. And I've already informed the Club President that the club isn't behaving as a christian club should already. I sent an angry email a week or so ago - and NOW this!

It's pure and utter maliciousness - coming mind you ffrom a so called CHRISTIAN!....who has no reason - and who also has some facts wrong regarding her intentions and knowledge of hubby's position with the club - aside from she was a 'principal player' in this macarbe dance when it occurred.


Please - just pray that I can handle this correctly. God doesn't pay bills - I've asked him. But in this - he can open the eyes and hearts of a supposed christian club so that they don't just react as people but as CHRISTIANS. If they react the wrong way - I can see that hubby will lose the plot completely. Am I looking at the worst case scenario - yes.

Lord,

Please, bring peace to Mikie, Help her to know that you are with her and her family. Lord, please strengthen her husband, Provide for all of thier financial needs. In Jesus name I ask that you silence any voice of gossip or slander that comes against this family. Let this family see your mighty hand work in their behalf

In Jesus name
amen

AMEN...standing in agreement.

Father I lift up Miki to you I can so relate to her I pray that she just keeps her eyes no matter what happens on you. Help her to see that these things are to help make her stronger. Help her to hang in there because on the other side of the fire you are waiting with open arms to comfort and bless her and make up double for what the locusts have stolen from her. Help her to continue to be a light even from the bottom of the pit she finds herself in. Love always wins but there is also a battle involved. Please help her to win!!

Standing in agreement....

This is what was the first full song that came on the stereo in the car this morning on my way to do the shopping - which I turned up exceedingly loud and sang exceedingly badly


Creed

By Petra
From the Album “Beyond Belief”

I believe in God the Father - maker of heaven and earth
And in Jesus Christ His only Son
I believe in the virgin birth
I believe in the Man of Sorrows bruised for iniquities
I believe in the Lamb who was crucified and hung between two thieves

I believe in the resurrection on the third and glorious day
And I believe in the empty tomb and the stone that the angel rolled away
He descended and set the captives free
And now He sits at God's right hand and prepares a place for me

(Chorus)
This is my creed - the witness I have heard
The faith that has endured
This truth is assured
Through the darkest ages past
Though persecuted, it will last
And I will hold steadfast to this creed

I believe He sent His Spirit to comfort and to reveal
To lead us into the truth and light, to baptize and to seal
I believe that He will come back the way He went away
And receive us all unto Himself, but no man knows the day

I believe He is the Judge of all men, small and great
The resurrected souls of men receive from Him their fate
Some to death and some to life, some to their reward
Some to sing eternal praise forever to our Lord





I recall something someone else mentioned in a dream thread I posted - about Job. I DOn't WANT to be Job. Now I have to go and read the book to remember all about Job. I feel like him - but I don't want to he him

But remember that Job recieved back double what he lost. The fire can feel so hot and go so long that you think He's forgotten you there. Look at Joseph and Moses. I too feel as you!!! But we must look up because he is right at the door the harvest is ready! God is preparing us for his work.

A quick up date - the President when I Spoke to him was wonderful. TOld me he appreciated my honesty - I could have just deleted the email etc and noone else would have been any the wiser......he also said - after I told him what sort of week it had been - and I did NOT use the words cow of a week either, I used stronger words believe me - said - never shut any door with out leaving open a window ( there's 2 meaning s there) - and 'He never gives you anything you cannot handle. He is testing you. ANd I think you'll find your shoulders are stronger than you think.'


ANd forgive me and my 'dumbness' - until hubby corrected me I did honestly think that Job didn't get relief from his trials until he died! I really need to read that book again.

Two books for you:

The first one "POWER SHIFTERS; I saw it on TBN.

When the guy was finished, they gave him a STANDING OVATION (which is RARE!!!)
Link where to buy it! It sounds like you need it! (You remind me of...well, heu... me; as if sometimes it looks like the next chimney is going to fall on your face...)

http://store.cornerstoneonline.us/powershifters.html


Plus the excellent book of Myles Munroe "Rediscovering the Kingdom" (Myles is GOOD!)

http://www.reclaimusa.com/


Myles Munroe' official site:

http://www.bfmmm.com/detail.asp?pid=182

I will look that up when the kiddies go to bed.

I didn't get the overdraft I applied for - even after telling them when I'd pay it back - after June 30 and by end of July for I have a known amount of cash coming in then. Hubby asked his mother after nagging me- I'd already rejigged the budget.....she said no - which is GOOD!

I got woken up from my nap yesterday - to the sound of a phone ringing - it wasn't btw - it was the 'bad news phone'. I checked the mailbox - and there's the rejection letter. Not happy Jan.

Today - though - after hubby left for soccer - I was turning th ecomputer off and I could smell chocolate vanilla.....figured it was the scented oil I have near by. I got up - went out side wehre I'd been making a vegie patch...I could still smell it. I went to the garden - was putting seeds in - could still smell it. Even MALACHI smells of it - or I can smellit when I pick him up. I sniffed the oil I have nearby - nothing like it - this is beautiful in comparison to that oil. It's amazing. I ended up just saying - well I know it's not me God, it must be you - thank you - I know everything will end up being alright....I just wish it was now - I know I'm iimpatient - you know I'm impatient - everyone knows I'm impatient ( my son thinks I'm talking to myself so is agreeing with me).

I canceled a christmas hamper club i was in and the extra tax I was having taken out of my income - so that gives me an extra $41 a fortnight