Hello all,

When I was 18 or 19; I attended an evening service and there was an alter call in which I went to the front and kneeled at one of the front pews. I had been struggling as to which direction I should take my life in God's planning (being a college student and confused about my major). Was I called to this "Major" of study for the use of God?

So I earnistly sought the Lord in prayer regarding my future. I felt a wind behind me as I prayed, and suddenly as my eyes were closed the center of the darkness of my closed eyelids ripped open from the center, was if you were to rip black constuction paper from the center outward in all directions at once. And I saw a snow capped mountain with clouds and I was at the base of it. I was startled and opened my eyes and had a sense of peace about me. I thanked the Lord and awaited further revelation.... yet none came.

I walked away from this event thinking "...ok my future is a mountain... I presume I must climb it..." Beyond that I had no Idea what my career would be.

I studied biology and received my B.S. And during this course of study midway through college I began struggling with my future again. Then one night I had a dream. It was of Me climbing up this mountain and walking into dense fog midway up the mountain. I heard a voice that told me to keep going I was almost there. And as I looked around to see who spoke to me in my dream, I looked behind me and there was a large multitude of people of every ethnicity following me. I felt a hand on my shoulder and as I woke up from this dream the hand that was on my shoulder slipped away. I felt that while I was walking up the my spirit was deeply in spiritual prayer kneeling before God. And Just as I fully awakened I saw something, very briefly, faster than I could focus, as it was leaving.

So I thought "...Maybe I am to be a missionary?" Sounded great to me to enter the foreign mission field. I volunteered for the job of a missionary in one of the farthest reaches I could, since so few are going.

Then God slammed the door on that possibility. I mean SLAMMED! I became a little bitter, I never thought God would reject a VOLUNTEER that would go to places that others fear to tread!!!

So what does this mean? God has given me understanding regarding some things, yet the rest is a mystery to me.

YBIC,
Itchy